Wolf Alice – Yuk Foo

I keep going back and forth between total despair and blinding rage. And in between I have to do my job and give my family emotional support. I kind of bailed on making food the past two days, who felt like eating anyway.

I can’t believe this is only the third day since the election. It already feels like weeks. I can’t take it if we are going to slow walk to the gallows over the next two and a half months.  I am too physically wrecked to actually do it, but a part of me really wants to smash things. If I were to go to one of those places where you can destroy things with a sledgehammer, the only thing I’d probably destroy would be my back. It’s all of this repressed grief stored in my muscles. Maybe I will have to take up running or something, just to move it around so it isn’t weighing me down. I have had to lie down every day since Wednesday, just for a few minutes, because it’s so heavy. I’d rather get it out.