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Everything is Everything

Phoenix – Everything is Everything

We ate all the foods. I cooked turkey, albeit not a whole one, just a turkey breast, and it came in a bag that you just had to put in the oven. As a vegetarian, I appreciated not having to handle the meat at all. And the meat eaters said it was very good. Win-win.

No Time for Love Like Now

Michael Stipe & Big Red Machine – No Time for Love Like Now

When this song came out back in the spring, there were a couple of different performances, varying only slightly by where did Michael seem to be? What was he wearing? Glasses or no glasses? There were interviews where he said, yes, it fits this moment really well but I actually wrote it back in the fall before we had an inkling of the pandemic to come.

The couple of songs he had released prior to this one didn’t really do it for me. I listened/watched the videos, but they weren’t going to be songs I put in my regular rotation. No Time for Love Like Now was different. I’m sure being cooped up in our houses, working from home, doing school from home, afraid to go anywhere, definitely contributed to my feelings about it. Here was Michael, just Michael, singing directly to me. Like a private little concert from his home to my living room. In the middle of a pandemic, in lockdown, in the midst of political turmoil, he was reaching out with a song that felt like a steady hand. Calm reassurance. And yet, at the same time, the power to completely destroy me. We were so fragile. I was trying so hard to hold it together, be strong for the kids and try not to let the worry show (I don’t think I succeeded well at that at all, btw). When his voice has that particular Michaelness about it, which not all the songs do, he still has the ability to just cut right to the very center of my being, exposing all those things I normally keep buried deep beneath the surface.

So now it’s November. We’re heading into winter, which you all know is my hardest season in the best of circumstances. Though we know more about the virus now, it’s still just as random who suffers greatly from it, who dies, and who doesn’t even know they have it. My worry about the pandemic is less panicky but my concerns about our ability to get through this winter, in round two (or whatever number it is) of COVID-19, are weighing on me. I don’t want a repeat of those first couple months from the spring. Everyone is weary after nearly 9 months of just holding on and nerves are frayed, tempers are short. I think this song will be even more important to me for the next few months than it was when it first came out.

Sleep Now in the Fire

Rage Against the Machine – Sleep Now in the Fire

Whoa. After seeing Rudy’s hair melting down his face today, along with Twitler doing whatever it takes to steal the election, I was almost spooked by this video. It was filmed in January of 2000 by Michael Moore. There’s Rudy, a smug asshole then, a dangerously stupid asshole now. There is someone at the 1:04 mark holding up a Trump for President sign something that would have seemed unbelievable twenty years ago. Freaky.

It feels like we’ve been sleeping in the fire for five years, and I🔥Am🔥So🔥Fucking🔥Tired. I just want to go to bed for one night and not feel like the country might burn down while I’m fitfully trying to sleep.